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Well, the year and so that I was part of this great place was really wonderful. Not only I learned from the greatest hackers in the scenes, but also found incredible people here.
There was Pugsy, always willing to help, never asking something in exchange. ugetab, distant sometimes, but always giving a hand when needed. LazyBastard, our benefactor without effort this wonderful place couldn't exists. LiquidManZero, always working to improve the site, and fix things. Hybrid, a friend and a companion, long nights working on some hacks, hope I was useful with me help as you were with your company. Mir, crazy, bipolar, but a good friend. Helder, always helping, never asked me for something, one of those men that can be called a real good friend. Whipon, always supporting, and always offering to help, another good man, bro.
So, it came a moment in life when things start to look different, and what you think about those things is just not the same. Life is funny, it just keep changing in unpredictable ways. How many times one can be punched by it, it doesn't matter, what really matter is what we learn from each fall.
And so I learned, and little by little started to change. There are things for wich we aren't prepared, and we can face them, or hide ourselfs. I never liked the hide part of this, but I must admit that sometimes hacking was like hiding, I just forgot about problems.
But then, as I said, life change in unpredictable ways, and I found myself on a job, and then this angel came to me life and shows me how to be happy, and so I started to face myself and life. This is not all the story, there is more behind. And I opened my eyes, and started to see things in another way. PCs and internet took posetion of the people, they are more time connected than in real life, not everyone, but the rest also has this need for the net, I see it in my job, they become desperados if they are not connected.
Life is tought, people you love can suffer in a lot of ways, as with sickness, and other things. Funny, everyone else is just connected, finding girlfriends over the net, having their first kisses under msn, fucking thru bytes, forming families with the help of religious pages, and so it goes.
I just got tired of hacking, no more fun at it when people around me is suffering. Now things are getting better, at least by now, but I can't just sit down again and start from my previous point. Not any more. I'm enjoying my job, helping my family and I'm so happy with this girl that I just want to talk with her and hear her laughing, see her smiling, and well, you can see the picture. There are still things to fix, people that probably took a path in life that is not good, following my way in my bad days, copying it at extreme positions. So I'm responsable for that and I will try to fix it.
So, what means all of this, you have already guess it by now, I'm officialy leaving the scene. So probably most of you don't care, but those who supported me and was helped with my codes, well I hope at least they do, not because I'm mean, but because it will mean that I did something good in that time, is just that I don't see anymore the funny side of it.
I'm by now far beyond any point of recognition, I can't even believe what I had become lately, but I like this me, I'm better than never, I feel for the first time in a long long time in peace with me.
Am I leaving forever? I don't know, but I will probably give my advice to who want to. So as I said, I don't think I did a difference, but I believe that I must do this correctly, just for those who, as I said, supported me and those who used my codes.
This isn't a good bye, but a farewell. I will just be lurking around, giving advice, and that's all.
So long, so long, so long. And thanks... for all the fish.
There was Pugsy, always willing to help, never asking something in exchange. ugetab, distant sometimes, but always giving a hand when needed. LazyBastard, our benefactor without effort this wonderful place couldn't exists. LiquidManZero, always working to improve the site, and fix things. Hybrid, a friend and a companion, long nights working on some hacks, hope I was useful with me help as you were with your company. Mir, crazy, bipolar, but a good friend. Helder, always helping, never asked me for something, one of those men that can be called a real good friend. Whipon, always supporting, and always offering to help, another good man, bro.
So, it came a moment in life when things start to look different, and what you think about those things is just not the same. Life is funny, it just keep changing in unpredictable ways. How many times one can be punched by it, it doesn't matter, what really matter is what we learn from each fall.
And so I learned, and little by little started to change. There are things for wich we aren't prepared, and we can face them, or hide ourselfs. I never liked the hide part of this, but I must admit that sometimes hacking was like hiding, I just forgot about problems.
But then, as I said, life change in unpredictable ways, and I found myself on a job, and then this angel came to me life and shows me how to be happy, and so I started to face myself and life. This is not all the story, there is more behind. And I opened my eyes, and started to see things in another way. PCs and internet took posetion of the people, they are more time connected than in real life, not everyone, but the rest also has this need for the net, I see it in my job, they become desperados if they are not connected.
Life is tought, people you love can suffer in a lot of ways, as with sickness, and other things. Funny, everyone else is just connected, finding girlfriends over the net, having their first kisses under msn, fucking thru bytes, forming families with the help of religious pages, and so it goes.
I just got tired of hacking, no more fun at it when people around me is suffering. Now things are getting better, at least by now, but I can't just sit down again and start from my previous point. Not any more. I'm enjoying my job, helping my family and I'm so happy with this girl that I just want to talk with her and hear her laughing, see her smiling, and well, you can see the picture. There are still things to fix, people that probably took a path in life that is not good, following my way in my bad days, copying it at extreme positions. So I'm responsable for that and I will try to fix it.
So, what means all of this, you have already guess it by now, I'm officialy leaving the scene. So probably most of you don't care, but those who supported me and was helped with my codes, well I hope at least they do, not because I'm mean, but because it will mean that I did something good in that time, is just that I don't see anymore the funny side of it.
I'm by now far beyond any point of recognition, I can't even believe what I had become lately, but I like this me, I'm better than never, I feel for the first time in a long long time in peace with me.
Am I leaving forever? I don't know, but I will probably give my advice to who want to. So as I said, I don't think I did a difference, but I believe that I must do this correctly, just for those who, as I said, supported me and those who used my codes.
This isn't a good bye, but a farewell. I will just be lurking around, giving advice, and that's all.
So long, so long, so long. And thanks... for all the fish.
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