Letting Out Some Frustration

[Dybbles]

I feel like it's time for me to do something like this. I have been hiding most of my feelings for a very long time now.
And I can tell that I am angry, pissed off and sad.

My life so far:
I'm 21 years old, I live with my parents, and can't drive and I work overnights at Wal-Mart as a stocker and IMS/ICS associate. I do get out a lot, but my friends are in college and have jobs of their own so I don't really get to see them.
I tried getting my license and permit when I was 16 and 17, but my older brother stole the money I had saved up, to buy drugs and alcohol so I never got the chance to take behind the wheel or get m permit. When I was 18 I was broke and looking for a job and couldn't get anyone to help me with learning how to drive.

When I was 19, I finally got my job at Wal-Mart. I work the graveyard shift and I sleep during the day and anyone who could teach me is sleeping, and can't take me to the DMV. I was going to move out with my brother during the middle of this month, but he quit his job. (That mother fucker! He is every goddamn flavor of stupid, on the popsicle of mental retardation!) I also have insomnia really bad and anxieties really bad too, and I never sleep, so I am irritated a lot too.

I feel like I am going in circles and going nowhere with my life. I want a car so I can go practice being a comedian (something I really want to do, and something I have been told by countless people that I should be. Even strangers think I'm hilarious.)

And I want to move out because I am sick of living with my parents, but I can't really afford to live alone, and I can't find anyone else to live with me. I feel like I'm trying my hardest to literally get nowhere. I hate it!!!! I'm sick of it!!!!

I'm sorry, but I needed to get this out. I feel like if I don't, I might do something regretful. One day I got so pissed off that I told my boss I would murder her, while we were in a meeting.

And when I was in the back room I was picking candles out of the bins and was so irritated, fed-up and tired that I smashed some of the candles and told one of my co-workers that I would break their skull with a hammer.

I'm so sick of busting my ass and not moving forward, it's depressing and irritating.

[Tony H]

It sounds like you got dealt a bad hand. But it also sounds like you have a good head on your shoulders. Here's my 2 cents...

I know you're sick of living with your parents, but for right now, they're probably your cheapest option as far as a place to live. Save some more money (don't tell your brother) and find a driving school, then get your license.

One of the keys to a successful life is to always have a goal. Make your next goal getting your license. Then the next goal can be to get a car. Then a new place to live, etc. Focus on your goal. Also, make sure you have at least one hobby to help keep your mind off other things.

Hang in there, things will get better.

[Lazy Bastard]

Seconded. Also, this thread reminds me of The Practical Benefits of Outrageous Optimism: http://www.mrmoneymustache.com/2012/...eous-optimism/

[Dybbles]

I guess things could be worse. I feel better now. I just needed to let some of this stuff out.

[Helder]

I hear ya man and believe me we all feel like we are running in place at times in out lives but like Tony said set a goal and stick to it. Get a bank account (if you don't already have one) and bank as much as you can and deal with the shit work till you have enough to buy some kind of functioning car to get you to new places like a new job. My first car I bought working at Stop and Shop making $69 one week and the other $93, I saved till I had enough to get something and that got me places. Hope things work out for you.

[47iscool]

Speaking of frustration. Just being without the net is frustrating me. But when rent goes up some things must be sacrificed.

Anyway I hope things in the future turn out better for you.